Oh great. It’s been months again since my last post. So I’ve had a busy summer, and a baby, and three other kids. Seriously though, what a loser blogger I am.
It’s actually quite funny because the post I ended on left us mid-series on why I don’t blog. Can we say “ironic” all together? It kills me to keep restarting every time I fail at something. I am a very all-or-nothing personality and when I blow it, I don’t want to start again. However, the last blog entry I wrote, and never posted, was a gentle reminder to why I must get back on the horse...
April 19, 2011
In my past two blogs I’ve given two common reasons that I often avoid things that God has called me to- laziness and seasons of drought. Today I’m going to toss out another reason that seeks to consume me.
“But God, someone else has already done it and they’ve probably done it better than I would!”
Sally So-And-So has been blogging her spiritual journey faithfully for four years and her “followers” outnumber my failed writing attempts. She’s obviously got the entire New Testament committed to memory. She’s funnier than I am. She’s more smarter than me. (It’s a joke.) Wouldn’t my efforts be unnecessary?
Oh, but they are necessary. They’re necessary because the harvest is plentiful and the laborers are few. (Matt 9:37) They’re necessary because Jesus himself called me to go into all the world and make disciples. (Matt 28:18)
The gospels tell us that when Jesus called His disciples, they left everything and followed him.
Am I leaving everything and following when God calls me? Or, am denying Him in order to cling to my fears and insecurities?
So today I open my laptop one more time to type out words that lay heavily on my heart. I submit one more blog to become my next step of obedience to God’s call to walk by faith. And then I pray for grace to continue - not to bring myself glory or success in following thru, but to bring God more glory and to make His name sweeter.
What are you avoiding because someone else has already done it before or done it better? What is it that God is calling you to pick up again, despite past failures?