A Habit of Forgetfulness
I beat myself up a lot for all of the things I forget. I forget dentist appointments, library books, and where I left my keys. I forget to call or email friends (or worse, my mom) back. Losing track of things I label as important, bums me out.
But, there are things I always remember. I always remember to lock the house up when I leave, or lock the car doors when I run into target. I remember to feed the kids three times a day (usually) and I remember to sleep every night. These things have become habitual.
I may start out my day in the habit of making breakfast and end in the habit of making dinner, but my spiritual life often encounters post-traumatic-stress syndrome that leads to gospel amnesia. As the stresses of the day mount and become increasingly tiring and burdensome, I have a habit of forgetting God’s faithfulness.
Out of all of the things I actually remember during the day, I want remembering God’s grace to become primarily habitual.
Let the problem, spark the solution
When darkness swallows my bedroom at night, I don’t worry that I’ve lost all opportunities to find my misplaced phone, sort the piles of forgotten laundry, or retrieve the sleepy little one’s missing lovie. There'll be no running to the bookshelf for a book about “what to do when your bedroom is too dark.” I am not bumping into pointy footboards or corners of dressers, I'd rather flip the light switch on.
My own darkness of heart should spark the same natural, quick thinking. “Woe is me” should lead right to “But greater is he.” I need a quick, knee-jerk reaction to truth that will keep me from bruising myself on the furniture of my own doubts and insecurities. When anxieties creep in, I must pray as the psalmist prays in Psalm 77:11-13:
“I will remember the deeds of the LORD; yes, I will remember your wonders of old. I will ponder all your mighty deeds. Your way O God, is holy. What god is great like our God?”
God’s track record of righteousness is enormous, unending, filled with wonders of old. His works and ways are worthy of pondering. Yet, even the Psalmist must “remember” God’s deeds. He makes the choice to be refreshed by God’s promises.
Pondering the faithfulness of God directs my thoughts, consuming and transforming them to the image of Jesus. A renewed heart and perspective are the only fuel that will power my weary soul to tackle all of the menial tasks, overwhelming details, and disappointments of my day. My joy rests in God’s ability to accomplish his plans, and not in my ability to remember all of the right things.
Remembering Recounts and Relays
“But we your people, the sheep of your pasture, will give thanks to you forever; from generation to generation we will recount your praise.” - Psalm 79:13
I am not remembering God’s faithfulness solely for my own benefit. I’m remembering it for the sake of my children, my husband, my friends, and everyone else I encounter. Keeping God’s faithfulness in the forefront of my mind equips me to testify to the joy and hope I’ve found in Jesus. Hope is worthy of recounting and relaying to others.
May we break the bad habit of forgetting God’s faithfulness and habitually remember the hope we’ve found in our great God!